I consider myself a very motivated person. Always wanting to learn, grow and challenge myself. Lately ive been feeling quite unmotivated....i think......I started working part time at Community Natural Foods, ( an awesome place to work if anyones looking ) and i love it. I cant say enough great things about this company and how they treat there employees. Im also learning an incredible amount. Im a bit of a health nut and am always looking to improve my health and better my life in the most efficient manner. So part of my job is to learn about health products, vitamins, supplement's etc. FANTASTIC!!!
The adjustment to working again has been a bit tiring. Being on my feet and engaging with people all day. But its only taken me a few weeks to adjust. Im a people person so its great to have time helping people and chatting about lifestyle choices. Being alone in my studio painting is great but i also know i need positive human engagement. Whats been interesting is that ive been feeling somewhat directionless in my art....I think.....ive been painting my Awesome People, and have 2 new pieces im going to do for the Philharmonics' fundraiser Cork and Canvas. Ill post them as soon as their done. Ive also almost finished another "Romantics" piece, just a few more tweeks.......so painting has been great but where am i going.....a big question.....and one i cant seem to answer right now.
If i just sit back and not worry, relax and paint, enjoy my life, i feel ok. But its very hard for me to not have a direction. A concrete direction. Where am i going! Whats my focus!!! Its like a foundation for me. When i know my direction and focus life is good. Floating around painting without a Gallery that takes all my work feels directionless, inconsequential and illogical. Three things that drive me crazy.....but as Deepak says, trust in the chaos....let go of attachments, trust in yourself and the universe that you are going in the right direction and that things will unfold as they should.......ok, easier said than done Deepak!!! But...this is where im at so this is what ill do.....
The next few weeks im going to be taking a 21 day meditation experience with Deepak and Opera. Its perfect timing! Popped into my mailbox at the exact moment i needed it to.....i guess he's right.......trust in the chaos......Anyone wanna join me on this Meditation Experience?!!